Just Wednesday Dude!

This week started off decent. I started to feel like something was brewing in the air Monday night. I was not planning on getting into an argument yesterday. I feel like I was pushed there. Everything around me was flipped upside down for a bit yesterday. I cannot let this whole ridiculous situation get me to the point that it interferes with my daily life because of how hard this plays with my emotions. Friends are in our lives for a specific reason. I believe that God places each person in our life there because we are meant to learn from each other and grow as friends and individuals. When the strength of a relationship is tested and fails, it is incredibly tragic. Sometimes we have no other choice than to leave and walk away. I don't want to go but I will because too much was said that cannot be taken back. We leaped across that "line in the sand" we know not to cross with each other.

This other person, and I have both invested so much time and emotions in our friendship. It is sad that something so insignificant can change everything. Maybe one day when time has passed we can be civil enough to each other to work through things, but the situation right now is too hostile on both parts for anything to be worked out. I have to step back and walk away from all this out of control drama. I cannot handle any more unnecessary drama from someone who is just genuinely unhappy and lacks self esteem. This is not the same person who I have always known. Somewhere between a sudden death and blown out rectum our friendship was tossed to the side a long ass time ago.

I have sat and listened to enough about why I should like her significant other. It is like she feels compelled to prove he is not a douche bag. I still stood next to her dispite what I thought inside because I am a loyal person. I have always wanted the best for her. I just lost the person I knew, and I had no idea how to approach the situation. Me losing control of my straight up rage yesterday was the most intense thing I have experienced in a very long time. I feel like I purged via text messages. It was inevitable that we would fight. I have never blown smoke up her ass in all the years we have been friends, and I am not going to start now. Now I have to live with myself after verbally assaulting one of my very good friends.

This morning I felt hung over from fighting full on mania. I am thankful I have more than one friend lol. My best friend will always be my husband. He is my strength. I have been very blessed to have found such an incredible person, and he actually loves me. He understands what I am dealing with right now, and he has been such an angel. Today I have kept myself busy. I am not going to allow her to have any power over me by sitting and dwelling on the situation. It is what it is. Only time will tell what is to become of the Thelma to my Louise. Hopefully we both learn something from this whole cluster fuck.

I have already learned I need to text my husband before I react to something that pisses me off LOL. I need to learn how to maintain my glide better. I am hoping that my friend learns I am a grown ass woman, and she needs to rethink barking because my bite back hurts.

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