Since I have started my page "Sexy Curves Required" on Facebook, I have had the opportunity to "meet" many different women and hear their stories about living life as a plus size girl in a skinny girl world. I have been able to tell my story in hopes of helping other women learn to accept their body as it is while on the road to healthier living. Admitting you are an unhealthy size is one step that is celebrated because a person is admitting they need to lead a healthier lifestyle. Once the person has reached their weight or size goal. It is celebrated with even more praise for having the strength to meet your goal. What about those of us that have lost weight, but we are still on our journey losing weight?
I have dropped 75 pounds in a year. This is a great deal of weight, but I still have more to lose. I have no intention of dropping under a size 14 which is still a plus size. Most people do not understand why I would stop losing when I am still considered a plus size. I have no desire to be a tiny woman. I love full curves because they are womanly. It is not about what size society thinks I should be. It is about what size I want to be, and the happiness I find getting there. I feel ten times more confident now that I have taken a good deal of weight off of my small frame. People who don't know me would assume at first site that I am a woman who needs to lose weight. What they don't realize is that I am in the process of losing. Just because I have not reached my goal weight or size doesn't mean I have can't have self esteem until that number is exact perfection. I find celebrating the work that I have done so far to be incredibly fulfilling, and I want other women to feel the same way.
Starting Sexy Curves Required has been an amazing experience. I receive emails daily from women who thank me for sharing my story publicly because they can identify with me. Reading the heartfelt thanks from a person who simply reads what I write is one of the best feelings in the whole world. I am grateful in so many ways. I feel like there is something bigger than me at play here, and I am bracing myself because I am down for this ride!!! I have a big voice. Knowing I am using it for good is indescribable.
Jumping out of the chubby closet is empowering. I am fully aware that I need to lose more weight. I just refuse to wait dress fabulous until a "magic number" appears on a scale or clothing tag. I forced myself to channel my inner fashionista who had been lost for a very long time. I can feel happiness instead of dread when I go to buy clothes. I make more of an effort to show the best of myself for no one other than myself. If I am truly content and happy with myself, I can be content and happy in all areas of my life. I have always been someone who achieves goals just to prove that I can do it. The only area in my life that I have had the most trouble with is my weight. Surrounding myself with other women who face the same challenges inspires and motivates me to continue to work hard. I don't want my weight to define me. Having over 5000 people to cheer me on and support me as I support them is fucking awesome!
Besos!
Drea
